And as I sat down in a coffee shop right in front of the beach, overlooking the magnificent palm trees and white sand beaches, I asked myself. Which way do I go? I know right after I step through the door of my office I’ll immediately feel in despair, lost, depressed, sad. A feeling I’ve been holding on for years. And I don’t want that burden anymore, I just wanted to let it all go, be free and not think of whatever the outcome of my decisions will be. Sometimes I can be reckless, but jumping off of the cliff without knowing what’s waiting for you down there is electrifying. Before I left the coffee shop, I’ve already came into conclusion of me saying ‘fuck it, I’ll resign’! But believe me when I say, everything went downhill first before I’m in this position right now, writing this spiel and abso-freaking-lutely contented that I did what I did. Tell me, what’s the most petrifying, life changing decisions you had to make before you finally found your happiness? Or have you done it yet?...
Yes! you read that right. That was my first impression from the moment we left home, to the time we hop on the plane. The 1 hour ride from Manila to Cebu made it seemed like forever! God! It's so hard for an impatient person like me to travel with kids. NEVER EASY! But, I prayed. I inhaled and exhaled. I kept my cool. And tried again! I stretched myself and tried the hardest to be patient. I had to! I need to understand what my kids are feeling and attend to them. I have to ask them what they need, so I will know and I can help them. My son was the hardest to understand, he tells nothing to me and all he says was he misses home. This breaks my heart into a million pieces. Because right there, I realized that I'm not their home. They seemed to feel like I've pulled them away from their home and the people they love at home. Sad! But this is on me, this is the outcome when you leave a toddler to your parents and work thousands of miles away. They knew they're your m...
I grew up in a place where traveling ain’t much of a thing. Growing up all I’ve wanted was to do good at school, get a degree, provide for my family and have a fruitful life. Every cliché thing a normal person would want in their lifetime. Then shit happens, and I’ve decided to work in Dubai. Nothing comes easy, everything was a challenge and by the grace of God I’ve landed a stable job. Living in Dubai opened my eyes into a lot of things including traveling. I never intended to do solo traveling! I can’t even eat in a restaurant alone, much more go to a complete foreign country ALONE! 😱 Yet miracle happened and the travel bug just bit me. I booked my first ever solo travel on August 2018 to Georgia, with no itinerary, no tours, nothing. I walked the streets of Tbilisi. Ate authentic Georgian foods in Rustaveli. Met fellow solo traveler and had the best trip ever. See when you overthink things and let your feelings get in the way of what you really wanted, you’ll always end up regrett...
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