And as I sat down in a coffee shop right in front of the beach, overlooking the magnificent palm trees and white sand beaches, I asked myself. Which way do I go? I know right after I step through the door of my office I’ll immediately feel in despair, lost, depressed, sad. A feeling I’ve been holding on for years. And I don’t want that burden anymore, I just wanted to let it all go, be free and not think of whatever the outcome of my decisions will be. Sometimes I can be reckless, but jumping off of the cliff without knowing what’s waiting for you down there is electrifying. Before I left the coffee shop, I’ve already came into conclusion of me saying ‘fuck it, I’ll resign’! But believe me when I say, everything went downhill first before I’m in this position right now, writing this spiel and abso-freaking-lutely contented that I did what I did. Tell me, what’s the most petrifying, life changing decisions you had to make before you finally found your happiness? Or have you done it yet?...
Yes! you read that right. That was my first impression from the moment we left home, to the time we hop on the plane. The 1 hour ride from Manila to Cebu made it seemed like forever! God! It's so hard for an impatient person like me to travel with kids. NEVER EASY! But, I prayed. I inhaled and exhaled. I kept my cool. And tried again! I stretched myself and tried the hardest to be patient. I had to! I need to understand what my kids are feeling and attend to them. I have to ask them what they need, so I will know and I can help them. My son was the hardest to understand, he tells nothing to me and all he says was he misses home. This breaks my heart into a million pieces. Because right there, I realized that I'm not their home. They seemed to feel like I've pulled them away from their home and the people they love at home. Sad! But this is on me, this is the outcome when you leave a toddler to your parents and work thousands of miles away. They knew they're your m...
Yup! That's me struggling to stand on my first ever surfing. But in life, who doesn't struggle? Who doesn't stumble and fall? We all do! No matter where you come from, what your social status is, once in your life you were also in a state where you felt so down and don't even wanna hold on anymore. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place, and I don't care how tough you think you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. So either you fight back, or you let shit get the better of you. Just like surfing, no matter how many times the waves fucks you up, no matter how many cuts you get from the corals when you fell, you always get up and try again. Because each wave counts! Right now, life has been hitting us with one of the most deadliest waves. But do we give up? Not at all! We fight the battle each and every waking day. Let's all...
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